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Take a walk in Blue Bell Woods listen to the sounds around you, of bird song and bees. Smell the flowers and the scent of Spring in the air. Every year is a new beginning and every day a blessing

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Sunday, December 31, 2017

Not since 78...........

We have had some snow. We have had a load of snow. Not since the Blizzard of 78 have we had this much. It was good that we did not have winds enough to make it a blizzard. There was so much coming down we could not see across the road at times.
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We woke up to about 22 inches of snow, after that we got more, all day long it snowed. This morning was not so bad. Gerry had to go and pick up Tristen. Luck we had a break. We could not have got him yesterday. Everyone was told to stay off the roads if possible. So many accidents and cars in ditches.
So Gerry dug out and snow blowed enough to get the truck out and then Tony went out and tried to get the snowblower working. Tony enjoys doing that stuff. Gerry does not, he hates being cold haha.
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The dang thing kept cutting out, guess it will have to go away again and get fixed.
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He kept at it and even went and got some guy out of his driveway who was stuck.
Meanwhile, look at some of the snow building up in the garden.
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The snow is so pretty. The fish pond disappeared.
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It had to have been bad out on the roads. Imagine if it were also windy
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The kids stayed inside all toasty and warm
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Meanwhile Tony was still outside working on the drive. He flagged down a guy in a truck with a plough. Asked him if he wanted to earn a few bucks. The guy cleaned out our drive and Tony paid him the 20 bucks the man had given him for helping him out of his driveway......Tony enjoyed his morning.
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The man made short work of it and now we have a nice clean driveway, but.......it is still snowing
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I went out twice to feed the birds. The only ones braving this storm have been the Blue Jays and a Yellow Bellied Sap Sucker
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I had to go out and clean off the feeders and the 2nd time there was a foot of snow on the dish again. Meanwhile I went out front to take some pictures. I could not remember how many steps we have haha, so I had to slide my feet down the steps knee deep. On the way back my boot came off so I had one bare foot and almost fell over. Now that would have been a great picture but no one to take it.
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The snow was over my knees.
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The mail man came and I said arn't you glad I blazed a trail for you? He was sort of cranky, who could blame him he was early and no paths cleared.
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Looking down the road
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So pretty and a safe place for the birds out of the storms. Bunnies also like the pines with an abundance of leaves under them
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These little guys were freezing so were their balls. (excuse me, the glass balls in the basket)
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The Christmas stuff will stay up now until the snow is gone. That may take awhile. Meanwhile. No BBQs for us just yet and the Poodles are not so happy to go outside, they prefer the piddle pads until it gets warmer as the day goes on. They do enjoy a good run when the paths are cleared off.
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It really is amazing isn't it. It looks so pretty and all that moisture goes into the ground and soaks down and into the Lakes. We get the "Lake effect" snow here as well as the storms that go through.
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Bella says "No thanks" but as soon as someone else joins her they go running around in the snow and come in covered in snow balls and sit on heating pads until next time.
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Everyone went out this evening so hope they have safe travels. It is still snowing. The sun came out briefly during the day, maybe half hour or so. Gave the Jays and doves a chance to feed. I did not see any little ones around. They must be huddled up in the nooks and crannies of the trees. Stay safe and keep warm. At least the cats are staying inside.

Happy New Year everyone.

Wednesday, December 27, 2017

Dear Robin..................

My dear cousin, do you remember? you are a few years older than me, not by much but you must have some very similar memories as I do. Did you play in the pits? The Cement works pits that is? I would go there with Mick Bird and his little brown dog (who shall remain nameless) Mick wanted to hunt rabbits and I fear he may have had different motives to me. I say that because as he and his dog were sticking hands and noses down rabbit holes, I sat on a bank and saw a wee rabbit right next to me. I was petting it, he saw me ...... he yelled and the rabbit ran. Apparently I was supposed to have caught it and I have no doubt what it's end would have been, now, not then. I had no idea he intended them for the stew pot. Apart from that we would climb the cliffs of chalk and look for fossils. I know you had to have played there too. The Blue Waters was the perfect playground though. The mud would harden in summer so that one could walk across the crust.
(the troublemakers, Harry and Cecil Hines)
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That reminds me of my Dad. My Dad and Uncle Cecil were "babysitting" Uncle Alan, the baby of the family. He was probably about 4, I am not sure. It had to have been after church because Alan was in his best Wool suit. They happened to be birds nesting and ventured over to the sewage works where birds would nest in the walls between the beds of sewage. It was naturally off limits. I mean, who would want to drown in sewage right? well, off they went Alan in tow. Walking on the walls between the beds of sewage looking for nests when suddenly a shout........they were seen. As it was summer the beds had crusted over much like the mud did at Blue Waters except this was not mud. Well Harry and Cecil quite nimble on their feet took off running hopping from wall to wall. Alan being smaller and somewhat chubby was left behind fairly quickly. So, he decided upon a short cut across what looked like a solid crust. It was not. In he went. The boys doubled back and pulled him out before the warden caught up with them, feet not touching the ground they whisked him over to the Washbrook. Aptly named in this case. You remember the Washbrook? Yes, Sticklebacks and frog spawn right? well Alan's wool suit was stripped off and duly scrubbed. As was a howling Alan. Upon return to the house (St Omere) they pushed Alan inside and took off not returning until Granddad Burt had gone to bed.
(sweet Auntie Annie)
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I am sure your experiences with the Washbrook was a bit different.
I loved The Blue Waters. We would slide down the banks and catch Sticklebacks in the pure Springs that came out of the chalk. The little engine that drowned in the pit was visible in summer when the water was low. We could hear the pump house groan and moan at night like a tormented ghost. Maybe it was the cement works engines, I don't know but it was a horror to me as a child.
Were you at home still when they found the skeletons over on the edge of the pits? Some lucky worker happened to see a head roll down the side as he was cutting out more chalk? Well there were a couple at least and my Dad took me over to see them when the archaeologists were working there. I had nightmares for ages after that and with the noise from the pump house as well.......I looked under my bed ever after. I still remember vividly the dream of a skeleton chasing me home from school.
(someone gave me a perm, how dare they. On the lawn at St Omere)
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Did you climb the old mill that was still standing at the top of Mill Road, I think every boy in the village did. Did you explore the Baulk? Or did you stick to the places over closer to where you lived? Like Rabbits Lane. Rabbits Lane led to the fields and beyond that to Dog Kennel walk.Back then it was just a footpath. One could stand on the bridge and watch the steam trains go under and become enveloped in the clouds of steam. I guess when I was small I ran away with our dog Jerry, and was found playing down on the railway tracks. I had ran off with a little boy down the road. I wonder who that was?
(someone who never lost his twinkle)
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I loved St Omere. I am pretty sure you must have lived there too at some point. I remember details of the downstairs. The black fireplace in the living/dining room with blue and white tile around it. My dog Jerry ate a balloon and threw up under a chair. The middle room was large and had that Bay window and a pantry under the stairs. The kitchen was like a galley and quite small compared to the other room. You stepped up to go into the living room. Beyond the kitchen was the bathroom. All concrete and brick and cobwebs. The door led outside to the toilet. WHo used that bath I wonder? They must have froze. The front room was probably off limits because I think I only saw it briefly. Outside though, that's what I remember most. The wonderful gardens. Apple trees near the road and a lawn, the slab over the well. I remember someone playing a trick on me, throwing a ball in the air and me not seeing it come back down. I was told it kept going off into space............well. Next to the lawn were trees that seemed to divide the property so that beyond that were vegetable gardens and Rabbit hutches. I doubt they were pets. I know on the side closer to the house were big patches of Rhubarb.
(Me and Jerry)
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I have pictures of me and Jerry playing there. Next door Uncle Bill had chickens. I loved to help him feed them, the smell of the chicken feed was pleasant to me. Beyond the gate was Muddy Lane and we could get through a hole in the fence and into the Cemetery. I loved going there. Auntie Annie would take me with her to tend the family graves. Last time I was there the grave stones were all lined up along the walls. A shame. I loved it there. I suppose Annie knew them all in her lifetime. I had not thought of that. For me the names all came together when I did our family history. I was thinking the other night, all that work. What will happen to it all. None of my lot would keep it. Jason has no kids and neither does Justin (not from him anyway) and Laura really is not into that stuff and neither are her girls. So...........I suppose it will all be lost again until some future relative takes it on and starts over. We never did find the John Hines we lost somewhere in the 1700s..............
(me playing in the orchard collecting apples I think)
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The village is gone now, at least the village I knew. All the wonderful memories will stay though. When we would go to the local butcher and get the meat fresh (ugh) I no longer eat meat. I was a very naive child, I saw the animals going in back and never put it together with the ones in the window.
Mr Green would deliver our milk on Bidwell Hill and the baker delivered the bread. I think mum worked in just about every store in the village at one time or other. we walked to school every day. You went to Bottom School, I went to Top School. I seem to remember for some time the kids from Bottom School would walk up to Top School for lunch and Mr Higgs was the crossing guard. He was a shoemaker/mender. I loved the smell of leather and sawdust. Another shoemaker on Bedford rd was a Mr Robinson I believe. We know our Gr Grandfather was a shoemaker and lived opposite the Crown. That house is no longer there. Most things are gone now.
(Grandfather Spittles house)
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The ponds are gone and don't you wonder about the houses built on those spots if at some point they will sink? Dad would tell me about how the wagons and horses would drive through the ponds to keep the wood of the wheels from drying out.
(this is me learning to walk with Harold and my mum)
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I can't remember when the houses of Woodlands Ave were built but did you live at St Omere before you lived there? we did while waiting for a council house. We moved in to Bidwell Hill when I was 4. We lived with my Grandparents for a time, Mum apparently could not get along with Granddad Burt. So I have no idea how long we lived there but it left a lasting impression.
I remember going upstairs once to see Granddad who was in bed for some reason. The ceiling had fallen on his bed. How did that happen haha...........no idea but I remember the bed. It was iron. Would love to have that now.
Well cousin, I will shut up now. Hope you enjoy a few memories if Carole will read this too you. Love you now and forever.



Tuesday, December 26, 2017

The Day After Christmas.......................

So today should be Boxing Day but it's not. It is a regular back to work day and Christmas is gone for another year.
The whole reason for Christmas gets lost and forgotten.
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I didn't put up decorations this year, I really missed them. It just did not seem like Christmas. I know they have absolutely nothing to do with the reason for the season but............it does give me something to focus on. Besides I love the glitter and the gold and twinkles and all that. I am sure Gerry will soon enough turn off the outside lights. We got snow again last night and it looks like a winter wonderland outside. The sun is shining and everything shines.
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My cousin Robin is very ill, he has little time left on this earth. He has been a dear friend and selflessly aided my Mother after my Dad died. He was there for her (and so for me) when she was ill. He cooked and baked for both funerals. I didn't spend any time with him as a child because he was a little older than me and away in the Navy for most of my adult life. When he returned it was to a house on Bidwell Hill, he moved a couple of times up there and ended up across the road from my parents. That was very handy for them both as he always had a hard time sleeping and so did she. He would go over during those nights when he saw her light on and make a cup of tea.
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Well, I have been talking to Carole today, his daughter. She lives in Spain but is there for a few days now. She is caring for him best she can. This is going to be hard on all of them.
It made me think............the way I believe is that if you are a Christian, then you have been saved and will spend eternity with God. That is the whole reason for Christmas. Christ came to die for us. He came to save those who would believe in HIM. I pray now that during this time, in Robins last days that his children and family come to know the God I know. If they do not already. That ensures that we will all be together again some day. God is good and I ask Him now to save my cousin, He promises that prayer will always be answered.
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I told Carole to tell Robin to say hello to Auntie Annie who most surely will be there and I know my Dad is. Carole thought that was a comforting thought. I told her that Christmas is the whole reason that we can believe that, Christ came to save us from our sin. He lived a perfect life where we can not. He was the perfect gift of love and sacrifice. All we need to do is accept that gift. We don't have to understand it we just have to accept it. I do.
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So it comes to us all. Life is short. But long enough when we get it right. A journey, a lesson of growth as a spiritual being and as a human soul. We take nothing with us when we die, only that love and what we have learned while here on earth. Where we go and what is beyond is a mystery to us although we do get glimpses of it if we read enough of the bible. We really need the Holy Spirit to understand that though and I often wonder if it holds different things for different people. I see death as an adventure and not as a threat or anything to fear. If I am wrong well I won't ever know will I?
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Robin has that same spirit as was in my Dad, it reflected in the twinkle in his eyes. My Dad's eyes, the mischief and quirky sense of humour, his giggle. I love my cousin and he knows it. I will see him again some day not on this earth maybe but in a better place.

Saturday, December 16, 2017

Week Before Christmas.............

I have not been writing much of late. There really has not been a lot to say. Here it is a week before Christmas and it does not seem at all like it. We do have snow. Quite a bit of snow actually. It's pretty. I try not to drive far in it although I would love to get out and take some snow pictures if only it would stop long enough for the roads to clear a bit. I am not one for driving on snowy roads, I can't see well enough.
I can not get in the mood for celebrations. All the news that comes out of Washington is either disgusting or scary. What this man is doing is just getting the middle class into further debt. Interest rates up, social security we get a raise that is immediately taken by Medicare. So no gain there. So have to be thrifty at Christmas, no spending if possible.
I didn't put up a tree because I didn't want to disrupt everything downstairs.
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I usually love to decorate. I love the sparkle. Gabby and Tony with Cooper have the two rooms downstairs and all the Christmas stuff is packed away down there and hard to get to. SO I figure it won't hurt to go a year without. Besides with the cats and Cooper would get into everything.
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As far as gift giving well I took the easy way out with that too. I ordered Figis for Jason, Justin and Laura. That is cheese and summer sausage and treats. Simple and easy and can always be used. I was not going to do anything but simply can't just not do something. The only ones here this year will be Gabby and family so no big meal either.
Having said that I spent the last two days making cheese balls. I made some chocolate treats and today make candied pecans. I am not at all sure it will be worth doing much more. I don't expect company but am prepared if we do get some.
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I do miss having everyone home but peoples lives change. Jason has 3 cats one of whom is sick, needs daily meds. Laura just moved downstate and we don't see Justin that often anymore. Tristen is not living here now, although I expect we will have him for a day at least. He will just be coming back from his holiday in Mexico. He got to swim with Dolphins and must have had a good time. He gets to do things we could never do with him. We miss him so much, but life moves on. Now I am used to him not being here it would be hard to go back.
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Life changes year to year. Things never stay the same. Memories of Christmas's past are treasures, or should be. I know mine are. I am not at all sure my family is that sentimental. When the grandkids were young we had some good years. When Justin came home and everyone was home, we had a blow up bed in the living room one year and all the bedrooms full. We played hunt the thimble and hide and seek. Danielle and Alex, Gabby, Justin, Hayley and Teal and Carrie. Then Jason and Laura with Joe (back then) and one year Joes girls. They wondered why I didn't want to play haha, well those meals took a lot of prep and planning. Not just Christmas dinner but breakfasts and snacks, lunches and all that. Then the linen changes on the beds. I am not sure I could do that all now, but I am sure I could rise to the occasion.
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The trees these days are fake, but they look so real that it's hard to tell. Back when I was a child the trees were spindly little things but with icicles and real candles they looked so pretty. Maybe just because they looked magic in the more sparse conditions. Our gifts were not under the tree but on the end of the bed. I do remember waking in the night (probably early evening ) and nothing being there, so I would try to stay awake and I must have believed because I remember watching for Santa on a very mood lit night. The frost on the windows........but I never saw him and by morning the gifts would be there.
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My gifts would be from Mum and Dad, auntie Ivy and uncle Norman and my Nan and Granddad. Usually books and one other thing from my parents. I remember most of them. I actually loved the books and still have some of them. I have my Teddy bear the one thing I did love. Other years they didn't do so well (I am ungrateful) I remember a doll dressed as a Dutch girl, it supposedly could walk when it's hands were held but I didn't like it. I have never liked dolls, always animals like my Teddy. Then one year a "twin" pram. I really did not like that. I had never seen anyone with one like it, I don't know what they were thinking. I never let them know that I didn't like them and so they never knew. We got the bear from Warren's in the village and remember seeing it and saying I liked it so that year they must have got it right.
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When Gabby and her family move I will have to go through all my Christmas stuff and sell some of them in my yard sale. No one else would want them. I love my ornaments but as each year goes by it is harder to get it all out and decorate. Maybe some day we will have a smaller house and that would help.

Wednesday, November 29, 2017

My take on Religion..................

Jesus is my Savior not my religion. My bible tells me that in order to exist with God Almighty we have to be perfect. Because He is perfect. We can't do that because we will never be perfect not in this life. We lost that when sin entered the world because of Adam and Eve's disobedience. Thus He sent His son Jesus Christ to help us get back to the perfect state that God requires. The sacrifice of God's only son gave us the way to make things right with God. By accepting the sacrifice that God made for us. Really a matter of obedience. God says that blood is required, now whether that is somehow to do with blood and the life in that blood I don't know, or if it is just a matter of obeying what God tells us to do even if we do not understand. Like when He told Abraham to kill Isaac his only son. Well Abraham had God's promise that the saviour would come through his line, so either God would save Isaac or somehow bring him back to life. Isaac too had faith, he was a strapping lad and Abraham was old. Without obedience to his father Isaac could have refused. So Abraham knew somehow God would fulfill His promise and Abraham was ready to obey and that was all God needed to see.
People look at the Bible, they try to understand what is not always going to be understood. It requires Faith and Love. Learn what you can and accept what you do not get just yet. As He says, some day it will all be clear, right now we don't have all the information or ability to comprehend. So just do as you are told and hang on.
I think that many want it all down in black and white and want to know NOW. Well that just will not happen. I have it straight enough in my own mind and I have a huge imagination where the rest is concerned.
All I know is this. What ever I have not understood in the past, at different times it falls into place. We all have questions.
It began for me when I saw God as a destructive and cruel person, the lives of others who were not His own seemed to be of no value. I worried about the animals and the children of those who God destroyed one way or other.
When Noah built the ark for example. He saved animals yes, to keep the species going but what about the rest. What about the babies and children who drowned? Why could He not find another way? After all He is God and can do anything. Well the Bible says that there were none without sin, none. Not even Noah and his family but they were at least in a firm relationship with God.
Just before that occurred there was a war in Heaven. Some of the Angels who had high positions got out of hand. They saw that some of the women down here were beautiful and proceeded to have sex with them. Male and female, from those relationships with man and beast all flesh was corrupted (over the years)and things were born that to God were monstrosities. Think your Roman, Greek and Norse Myths for a start. The beasts that are no longer with us, half man half goat, half horse, whatever. There were giants in the lands. I know that one tale of the guy who was told to leave Troy by his dad went and found England and it was occupied by giants. Yes skeletons have been found throughout the world. So, after a time God repented of making man and decided to just start over, but He had made a promise and did not destroy everything. He chose Noah, a Godly man and his family and sent for animals in pairs and in sevens and sent them to Noah. Noah has nothing to do with the choosing of them and GOD shut the door to the ark.
Now, we know there was still sin within the new creation because Cain killed his brother Abel.
So life began again on planet earth. We are on God's timetable not ours and the time was not yet right for God's plan to proceed. Man had gotten way to far ahead of things. With the tower of Babel and technology it was corrupted and cursed.
The question remains...........was the flood all over the world, or the known world at the time? Does it matter? Did God create other people other than Adam and Eve. Again, does it matter. The point of the story of Adam is to show how Christ is related to him through his genealogy back to Adam and Gods promise of salvation through Adams line. Is the rest all extra or is that it? I don't know.
I would imagine that Dinosaurs were long gone before Adam, maybe a few prehistoric's remained who knows who was on the ark. The thing is all those huge bodies sure did a good job of fertilizing the earth. Darwin's theory of Evolution is just that. A theory. I believe in adaption. We see that even today, animals and bird adapt to their living conditions but a Dog never became a Cat and a Monkey never became a man. They are different species. I can believe that all monkeys came from one pair though and changed and adapted over time because we see that in animal husbandry now. We can manipulate a dog over a few years to become a new breed but it is and always will be a dog.
If we believe in infinity, and no we can not grasp that concept, then maybe it is possible that God created other life on other planets in other galaxies. Maybe they turned out better than we did and maybe the Angels didn't fancy them, or maybe the ones watching them were of better moral fiber.
All I know is there is a spirit world, another life form other than us. They were created by and for God's pleasure. We are the clay and He is the potter. We exist because of Him and for Him. Think about what a privilege it is then to have a relationship with the creator. By accepting Jesus's gift of love, His death, as our Salvation we get to have a personal relationship with Him. It does not mean we wont go through bad times, or wont get hurt by war or accident or famine or any of those things. It means He will see us through and eventually when our time is done we can go home to God. '
Man was made for the earth and I believe that when all is said and done we will come back to a perfect earth and complete Gods original purpose. We should be able to inter act with Him as it was in the beginning. Can we then travel to other places in the universe? Why not? God created it all and I can not imagine that He didn't have something in mind other than us tending a garden on earth. Personally that would be fine by me, give me all my animals and that is Heaven for me. Yes some people apparently will be in Heaven and those have a different mission. It's all there in the bible for those who care to read with an open mind.
Well I am no scholar and I am not saying that this is what people should believe, I have no right to do that. I am limited in my knowledge. A lot of this is common sense though. People argue over time lines what is a year to God and to us? Is it the same...........sometimes yes sometimes no. Do we have ALL the books of the Bible, no we do not. A man decided (with or without Gods help?) what should be in our current Bible and what should be left out. Read it all and make your own mind up. If you have accepted Christ as saviour then the Holy Spirit is your guide not me.
All I know is the truth is there for us.................what about other religions. Well again that's not for me to say. For me and for Christians then the Bible is our guide. The jews and the Muslims worship the same God. Do they have a different path or are they all supposed to follow Christ. I do not know. God speaks to them as well as us and it is for them to find their own way as the Spirit guides us. The Muslims have the Koran, did God give it to them? I don't know but I am not going to sit here and say that they will go to hell if they don't convert because I don't know, the Holy Spirit will and should guide them as well as the Jewish people. Some of those people will be converted after the war of Armageddon that is lurking on the horizon I believe.
What then, a large war that will end life as we know it but will bring forth a new heaven and new earth. The Lion lays down with the lamb and no more wars............thats heaven to me. Bring it on. Jesus will come back. Will I be in trouble, probably, will I have much to answer for ? Yes but I know this Jesus died for me and I accepted His sacrifice and so even if I am scrubbing toilets I will spend eternity with Him.

Tuesday, November 28, 2017

Visiting Alexandra November 2017.......................

I just got back from visiting you today. I am feeling sad. You looked so forlorn and neglected. Does anyone visit you anymore?.
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I stopped by last week really quickly as Gabby was with me and doesn't like graveyards or going to see you. She would not come today. I have always loved them as I have said before and given my reasons. Today though I wonder. Who will visit you when I am gone? Heck, who will ever visit me? Everyone is so far away now. Danielle is in Washington State. Jason down near Detroit and Justin up North. Laura is now down state and when I am gone I doubt she will come up here that much. Everyone always has a reason and I suppose all valid reasons. After all we would be dead. So maybe it's just me that has this need and feeling of closeness when I go to visit the dearly departed haha?
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I always said I want to be cremated and sent back home to England because I feel no connection here. Then when Alex died I felt maybe I could stay here. Again I am not sure. If I am to be alone then maybe I want to be with my family. Back home. Where I belong. ENGLAND. I was always going to ask to be sent to Mark in the hopes he would take me to where my parents and Grand parents all lie. I think that would be nice. Any English soil will do really. I may just decide upon that after all. More likely to get visitors too haha. Some far off in the future relative doing genealogy may find me and wonder what the heck happened to this one.
I am hoping the deer come to eat the apples near Alex grave, that would be nice, she would like that. YES I know, she can't see them but if she knew, she would have liked it.
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The schaub's are all in the same cemetery as Alex but they are not my family. I was just thinking the other day how much I missed out by coming here. I was thinking when Gerry and I went home when Dad died. Oh my, the laughs we had with Ray, Eddie and Ivy. All of them gone now too. There could have been such good times that we have never had here with family. We laughed that night till we cried. Dad's funeral too at Mum's house. My wonderful cousin Robin who catered it all. The great neighbours who stole my laundry and brought it all back folded and ironed. Same when Mum died. That does not happen here, not for me. The closeness of the community on Bidwell Hill has never been here. Part of that is my fault. I am not outgoing. Those people I knew all my life and I am different with them. A different person, myself. I realized that when I was staying with Mark and Marie how different I felt. I can't explain it. I want to go home so badly, I always have. I told myself that I love it here and I do at some level. I love my home, I love Northern Michigan. There are beautiful states to see. But..............it is not home and never will be.
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As I get older and older I spend more time reflecting on old friends and family. Many who are now gone. My friend Margaret just lost her husband, how I wish I could be there. Sheila's husband is unwell. Old friends are the best friends, we have a lifetime of shared memories from when we were young. No one here knows me, not who I really am, including my kids.
If I had the money and means I would go home in a heartbeat. Our life would have been so different. Ah well, no regrets. Regrets are a waste of time and who knows what the future will bring if anything.
So Alex thanks a lot. Now I am in a melancholy mood...........If I can get back before the snow flies I will bring a pretty wreath. See ya later gator.